Reverend Greg

Be careful what you wish for

They don’t appreciate you, never did…. And what really pisses you off is they know you’re better than they are, always have been… You should have been the team captain, numero uno, the big cheese…

Sure, your teacher talks about the dark side but hey, let’s face it, it’s all relative, it’s all about the food chain. You’re either the prey or the predator, they’re not fooling you. That’s the way life is, no matter what they say.

It’s just that… that… you’re under ranked. Why are they holding you back? Why won’t they give you the rank you deserve? You’ve earned it; you’ve put in the work. Yeah, you’re young, but you’re good, and they know it.

And then you find a teacher that really understands you, understands who you are, and what you can do. Understands what you deserve.

At first there’s a voice that says don’t do it, you know it’s wrong but that voice isn’t yours after all, it’s theirs. You finally block it out.

Life is about power, you either have it, or others have it and use it against you. It’s as simple as that.

So you sign on, you go for it. You have the teacher, you have the power, you have everything you wanted, everything you deserve.

And somewhere down really deep you remember that little voice that was telling you be careful what you wish for, you may get it.

What an asshole you are. You got all the power you could ever possibly want and now you live in an hideous life support suit. You don’t even recognize yourself in a mirror, you avoid mirrors all together. And what’s worse? You were used and you know it and all the power in the world can’t change that – you were had.

So now you feel like a sick joke, an ugly freakish demon. Everyone is frightened of you and while power is good, you wonder how long the novelty will last. You feel the power, it surges through you but you never imagined the price would be so high. Sometimes you would give anything to simply start over again and do it differently.

More than anything, you just feel so sad. It wasn't suppose to be like this.

Just like they said, forever will it rule your destiny. They were right, but hey - they’re all dead. Well, most of them…

Posted by revgreg at May 10, 2005 06:51 AM