May 12, 2005

Queen Lolo is a Very Bad Girl

I took down my SGI Gohonzon today.

(No lightening bolts so far….)

I rolled it up and put in the box it came in and put it in a drawer where I keep special things.

(No thunder storms or knocks at the door yet…)

I replaced it with a representation of the Buddha, beautifully embroidered in cloth on a small purse, thoughtfully given to me by my beautiful sister for my birthday this year.

(No earthquakes or even heart palpitations.)

I have had my Gohonzon for awhile now. I gave it my best shot. I like chanting, I enjoy the practice as taught to me by the SGI. This wasn’t an anti-SGI move.

It was me being true to myself. Try as I might, the Gohonzon doesn’t do anything for me. I don’t do anything for it. We just sit there awkwardly staring at one another, the Gohonzon and I, like two mismatched singles on a terrible blind date.

In writing about how to set up a “puja table” which is similar to an altar, Ram Dass says, “In developing an inner Center, a meditative stance, or connecting with your heart cave, it is most useful to create an external quiet space where you can hook up for refueling. When setting up the puja table, choose a quiet place, a place that can be a refuge. You come home feeling speedy, you’re angry at someone – or whatever – sit down in front of the puja table and Remember.Typically, pictures of holy beings, statues, flowers, fruit, beautiful stones or shells, or things which you associate with the highest place in yourself, are put on a puja table….”

This is how I believe an altar should function, too. So today I replaced my Gohonzon with a depiction of the Buddha that touches my heart. I may later replace it with something else. Maybe a small painting of White Tara. Maybe a photograph of a flower, taken by my daughter. Maybe I’ll even put the Gohonzon back at some point. I like to change things around. Shake up my mind. Wake myself up.

But what wakes me up up may not be what wakes you up at all. (My teenager said if she had an altar, it would have a photograph of Chad Michael Murray, a celebrity hottie.) What centers me, focuses me, reminds me of the truth of existence (or at least of my faith in such), is something only I can decide. And since my ultimate challenge and purpose is to trust myself and have faith in my own path, creating a meaningful altar is a really big deal.

Then again, it’s no big deal at all.

Posted by at May 12, 2005 03:50 PM
Comments

Wow. Strong move, but I don't believe it's a bad one. Ram Dass is right. It has to work for you.

In my sangha, none of the newer people have even asked about getting a Gohonzon, although several have altars. Those of us who are more old-school, our altars are getting more idiosyncratic. Some of us have more than one.

Changing it up is good - otherwise it gets stale. Even Nichiren Shu made us chant without gohonzon for six months before letting us join. Personally I missed it terribly. But I have a new one (kept the old). And I've been rearranging and adding statues recently.

I love your blog.
-Dave

Posted by: David at May 12, 2005 10:19 PM

Thank you, Dave! You know, the funniest thing happened tonight. I decided to check out Ram Dass's website. His first book, "Be Here Now," was the first dharma book I think I ever read, way back when... I have been feeling drawn to him again. So I went to his site and was clicking around and went to the "gifts" section. There were only a few items for sale, but one of them was the exact same Buddha bag that I put in my Budsadan this morning. (And no, my sister didn't get it from there.) Talk about synchronicity... It was like the universe was giving me a "thumbs up!" Weird!

Posted by: queen lolo at May 12, 2005 10:52 PM

Congratulations! And may your search bear fruit....

Namaste, Engyo Mike Barrett

Posted by: Engyo Mike Barrett at May 13, 2005 06:30 AM

I've been watching a peony bud beginning to open in my garden. For 8 years I've nurtured those plants in our sandy soil. Finally, they're responding with blossoms. When it blooms I'll add it to my altar in a crystal vase.

My own life opened when I decided to look closely at why I sat down twice each day to reflect on my life and praise the Dharma. I'm
glad I took the first step to find my way to the Buddha's teachings.

Don't believe any 'curses' you may have heard about mandalas. You have to give 'curses' power if they're going to work. Superstitions are only words and opinions, smoke and mirrors.

Can't wait to hear your unfolding story! Patty

Posted by: Patty at May 13, 2005 08:20 AM

Thank you, Patty. I have a garden, too. It's just a small one, surrounding my brick patio. First garden I've ever had. I go out there every morning and feel AMAZED. In truth, that space is more of an "altar" to me than anything I have indoors.

Posted by: queen lolo at May 13, 2005 08:30 AM

When I decided to try the Nichiren Shu, I was given a "temporary" Honzon to use for six months and then received my official Honzon. I still have the temporary one, as well as my Nichiren Shoshu honzon. I also have statues of Shakaymuni that I place with the altar. Dave in Ks.

Posted by: Dave Halverson at May 13, 2005 08:50 AM

'What Dave Said.' I have three altars set up right now. I like the Mandala Honzon. Counting small ones, I have 10 enshrined. Plus one pictoral mandala. I prefer paintings or pictures of statues to statues.

robin

Posted by: ryoben at May 13, 2005 04:16 PM

HRH Queen Lolo:

You must follow your own path. Your comments sound exactly like what my wife said. She loves daimoku and chanting, but cannot relate to the Gohonzon. This has taken some adjustment for me, but I'm cool with that now.

For me, the Gohonzon is a perfect match, but I do now truly understand how that is not the case for others.

Walk your new path with pride and honor.

Charles

Posted by: Charles at May 14, 2005 08:23 AM

Your creative ecclecticm is enchanting and inspiring. I'm just coming out of a very rigid, paint-by-numbers (for me) approach to practice, so you're fortifying me by your example.

Gabrielle

Posted by: Gabrielle Wise at May 14, 2005 10:27 AM

Oops, I meant "ecclecticism." I'm not very well slept these days, hence the wonky editing.

Gabrielle

Posted by: Gabrielle Wise at May 14, 2005 10:38 AM

I chanted myself into "smrti" {tranquil mindfulness}this morning. Then for 2 hours just quietly contemplated the mandala. I was using my 8 X 10 framed 1280 Nissho daimandara.

I used the digital image from GohonzonInfo, printed it onto a yellow gold back ground. The frame is fake redwood. It is very easy on my eyes.

I got into samadhi, and the kanji starts coming to life. The characters looked the deities they represent. I like the calligraphy mandala.

To be honest, I do not well relate at all to the SGI Nichikan knock-off. It is like I used to tell my daughter -- even though she didn't like the vegetables, maybe it was the way they were cooked.

Niko had a pictoral mandala painted, it was one of the things that got Nikko ticked off. Mike Barrett sent me some pix of picture mandalas, and I have a couple more as well. I made a stab at making one with word, and plan to try again, now that I know how to use paint. I was thinking I would use lucifer to represent Mara.

Actually, I have found pix of every character on the Nissho Daimandara, except I am not sure on Miao-lo. The one I think is him looks like Ted Osaki.

robin

Posted by: ryoben at May 14, 2005 12:15 PM

Beyond the pale: excessive self-indulgence

No this is beyond the pale. Of course there aren't going to be thunderclaps or earthquakes because of a de-enshrinement of the Gohonzon. Something far worse: namely a descent into complaisance, excessive self-sufficiency in one's own beliefs, and worst of all, the absence of a real social context to one's spirituality. Without that chanting becomes so atomized: and in this case, Ratzinger's description of Buddhism as a spiritual auto-erotism is absolutely true.

In this context, Kosen-Rufu is meaningless. That is ultimately what attracted me to Nichiren Buddhism - that it was part of a wider social project for a better world. If that is to be replaced by a voluntarism where everyone decides on their own object of worship (whose only grounding is their own life experience which is just as likely to be banal as illuminating) - then everyone - will remain in their own rut - condemned to their own horizons.

I have found some real insights in these blogs - but I find this one just to be a means of eliminating all moral purpose from Buddhism.

Steve

Posted by: steve thatcher at May 19, 2005 09:32 AM

Steve,

Do you really believe that without a Gohonzon, one cannot make a valuable contribution to society?

I believe I am doing more for world peace by raising self-motivated,compassionate, pro-active children than by sitting in front of a certain piece of paper and saying certain words. I feel that making environmentally-aware choices in terms of what we buy and use and discard is what makes one moral. How we talk to our families and friends and neighbors... The attitudes we bring to the workplace and to the bank and the post office and dry cleaners... these are what makes one moral and changes society. How we deal with others, the decisions we make on a moment-to-moment basis, how we deal with ourselves... this is what matters. NOT what we sit in front of how we practice Buddhism.

It's what we DO with that practice that impacts the world.

That's my two cents.

Posted by: queen lolo at May 19, 2005 09:50 AM

Queen Lolo,

In raising a family you are doing a damn sight more for society than me, so I applaud you for that!

But my point being, on our own we can only do so much to change society, and moreover, it is very easy to slack off. That is why laws enforcing environmentally-aware behavior is more effective untimately than hoping everyone does indeed recycle or abstain from dumping etc purely from their own individual viewpoint. While they might wish to do so, laziness, inertia is bound to overcome them at certain moments.

I personally am an SGI member, though I find the current Ikeda-centrism intensely irritating. Ultimately in all associations we make compromises: we avert our eyes from what displeases us because we believe that our greater numbers will ensure greater impact. Moreover we have an, however imperfect, support network which can sustain us during periods of weakness.

That ultimately is my beef with extreme pick-and-mix buddhism. While someone might wish to chant to a purely individual object, through a purely individual faith, when times get rough, when the inevitable struggles on the way to enlightement occur, what kind of support network can a person in their utterly-individual practice rely on? Could a comrade say, "you're not chanting to your fishtank/eminem-poster/laura-bush-poster/jack-daniel's-bottle/television correctly"?

If everything is so individual, how can, putting it very bureaucratically, "spiritual performance" be evaluated? (I know there are some people who might think that is a sacriligious formulation - but sure it is true that our prayers have different levels of efficacy - determined, lazy, absent-minded etc). Only with some agreed framework, which implies social organisation, can a slackening buddhist be properly taken to task! (For their own good of course).

It is for these reasons that I disapprove of excessive individualism in one's practice. However this leaves open the larger question of how to behave in organisations (like mine) where one is not hugely in sympathy with the way the organisation is going - where one's samgha has gone funny - where there is a bit of a dislocation between reality and the words to describe it?

So if anyone has any ideas about how to be a loyal opposition within SGI - I'd like to hear it.

Steve

Posted by: steve thatcher at May 23, 2005 03:55 AM